Day 9 – 100 Day Commitment

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Last night I began reading Being in Love: How to Love with Awareness and Relate Without Fear by Osho.  What I appreciate about Osho’s work is his ability to provoke thought.  Each time I have read any of his work, I find myself stretched.  Stretched to delve deeper, to question, and reflect.  What I also appreciate is his courage to just say it, speak and write his beliefs, and his wisdom.  Even though he has met much resistance, rejection and condemnation for his work from many, he speaks his truth with out question and with a calm strength and knowing.  As I went to choose my next book, I did start reading one book and it was not sitting with me, given what I’ve just shared, I knew in that moment this was the book I needed to read.

In the introduction he asks “What is love?”

“Yes, it is talked about.  Films and stories are written about it, songs are composed about it, on the television shows you will see it, on the radio, in magazines – a great industry exists to supply you with ideas of what love is.  Many people are involved in the industry of helping people understand what love is.  But still love remains an unknown phenomenon.  And it should be one of the most known.”

This had me stop and reflect on how I perceive love.  Should we really wait for one day each year – Valentines Day – to express and show love?  Shouldn’t it be intrinsic and natural to our being every waking moment of our lives?  I thought about this, and how much I have denied love.

“When we are born we are born fully equipped with the capacity to love and to be loved.  Each child is born full of love and knows perfectly what it is.  There is no need to tell a child what love is.”

Oh, to be in love, such a gift.  Being in love with life, family, friends, that is what I desire in my heart.  Do I love my life, my family and friends?  Yes I do, and the question remains in my heart – do I want more or is it okay as it is?  As Osho delves deeper in the first two chapters, he touches ego and how it creates un-love.  An estranged friendship that is causing both parties a great deal of pain right now, brings this point to the forefront for me.  Un-love is blame, playing “I’m right”, and holding on to past hurts.  As I shared with my dear friend Farhana the pain of what I was experiencing, her words exquisite words of wisdom and love that I read this morning played a huge part in my meditation and affirmations.  “What you were is complete and has served it’s purpose.” really resonated with me and struck a chord.  I thought to myself, is that not what love is about?  Recognizing what is complete and has served it’s purpose, and moving on with acceptance, forgiveness and gratitude.

Oh I could keep writing forever this morning.  Time to go wake up my beautiful girls and start a wonderful day.  Off to hot yoga this morning, time and space to be.

What is complete and has served it’s purpose in your life?

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