Yesterday I wrote about the crap called clutter that I have created in my physical space. There is another type of crap I am dealing with – and that is emotional, It never ceases to amaze me how clutter in my surroundings impacts my emotional space. I led to this with these statements from last night’s blog post:
My head feels like it’s going to explode! The clutter in my head, is filling up. Negative beliefs are surfacing – “I’m not good enough” “I’m not worthy”
My spirit feels frazzled and confused! Spending all this time on the physical clutter has left me feeling frazzled. My spirit is exhausted, I miss the things that bring me release and joy.
My heart feels disconnected and lost! I feel disconnected from everyone and everything. There’s the old saying “out of sight, out of mind” that’s how I feel.
As I write this the Quiet Strong Voice pops up ”Lee, you are enough and you are worthy.”
So what do I need to do to reframe and take care of me?
Thanks to a beautiful phone call from Natasja of Symmetry Works who called to check on me, I let it all out through tears, disappointment and frustration. Natasja encouraged me to go create – go do something for me right now. So the first step was writing this post – as writing brings me great release. Secondly I am going to go downstairs in the clutter free basement and look at my 2012 dream board.
My four words:
Commitment – I am committing to put myself first.
Resilience – I am resilient and will step through this.
Persistent – I am taking each moment at a time with persistence.
Love – I am worthy of my own love.
As I look at the photo I am so proud to see there is NO stuff or crap on here – it is all about relationship, and a way of being. I really need to add the word Patience to the list – it has taken a lot of my energy to slow down, be very intentional and thoroughly researched to create.