Why do I share my story of mental illness?

I am asked on a regular basis WHY & HOW?

Why do I share my story?

How do I deal with people opening up to me about their own mental illness?

Why do I share my story?

My first bout of depression was November 2001, having had an adverse reaction to the anti-depressants I was prescribed, I made a choice!  I took a three month stress leave from work and dedicated all of my time to my physical and mental health.  After three months I came back to work rested, rejuvenated and physically and mentally well.

In October 2004, a year after my second daughter was born, I was hospitalized in a psychiatric ward.  Major depression and anxiety disorder, more than likely stemmed from untreated postpartum depression.  You can read my story starting HERE.

For what seemed like an eternity, that was over one year of my life, my world was turned upside  down.

FEAR of being judged kept me isolated and alone.

FEAR of the pain I was causing my family let me to believe there was no way out.

FEAR of what others would think kept me from reaching out and asking for help.

Darkness, desperation, hopelessness, helpless, sad, frustrated, alone, misunderstood were part of my daily life.

I share my story in the hopes that others will not feel as desperate, lonely, hopeless, helpless and alone as I did.  Even with an amazing support system the FEAR always remained.  It is my hope and prayer, that by sharing my story mental illness and suicide prevention will be openly supported, discussed and accepted.

How do I deal with people opening up to me about their own mental illness?

In the past seven days during Mental Illness Awareness Week and the launch of Going Blue 4 U, I have received:

• 8 people call/message me and admit for the first time to anyone, that they were thinking of taking their life.
• 24 private facebook messages of people sharing they lost a loved one to suicide.
• 11 private facebook messages of people admitting they have depression or bipolar.
• 7 direct Twitter messages saying Thank you, I reached out to the 24 hour crisis line for support.

Many years of personal development, becoming a certified coach, being open to learn and the wisdom of friends, I have received many lessons that serve me:

• Detached compassion
• Caregiving vs caretaking
• Accepting that I cannot fix anyone
• Maintaining and reaching out to my Emotional Support Team
• Mental Health Professionals who I reach out to for support
• Monthly sessions with my Counselor

I give what I can with pure intention and attention, and if I am unable to give someone what they need I say NO, and introduce them to someone that can help.

It is imperative that we come together as individuals, organizations, medical & holistic, parents and teachers to help reduce the stigma.

I truly believe at the core of the stigma is Relationship!  Let’s get back into each others lives: meaningful conversations, listening with full attention, taking time for loved ones, and COMMUNITY – real life community.

Today is World Mental Health Day – what will you do for your mental health today?

Hugs & Love